Decay

Decay

5 days ago with no comments in Uncategorized
The sanctuary lamp is burning danger-red. The host is sealed away like radium in lead. Behind the golden doors your glowing heart decays, emitting bits of love as burning alpha rays. I’d climb inside that tomb, I’d cook in your desire, my atoms all deranged, my organs all on fire.
Parable

Parable

2 weeks ago with 8 comments in Uncategorized
So I’m sitting at St. Clement’s trying to get a good cry in before I start the day. Like you do. It’s an odd hour, so there are only three or four people there. Most of us are scattered, but one, an old African man, is kneeling front and center, in the middle of the aisle, orans position and everything. I already like this guy. He reminds of another old African man — ...
Hang Together

Hang Together

2 month ago with 46 comments in Uncategorized
Somebody asked me the other day why Adoration is the one thing I can hold on to. Context for the question: I’m a hot mess. Without going into specifics, celibacy1 has not been exactly my forte lately. There was a guy,2 and now there isn’t. And although in some ways it ended extremely well, and although a decade and a half of now done darkness3 taught me how to keep a pretty even ...

National Coming Out Day 2016

2 month ago with 11 comments in Uncategorized
Happy National Coming Out Day. Since I came out as gay in 2013, my life has gotten more complicated in some ways and less complicated in other ways. It’s more complicated because I have to take being gay seriously as a part of myself. I don’t have the freedom anymore to say that it isn’t that important, that it’s always something manageable, that it doesn’t touch ...
Full Circle

Full Circle

10 month ago with 15 comments in Uncategorized
Dear Amy,1 Thanks for asking about this. The idea of “offering things up” is actually pretty central to my understanding of Christianity, and I’m happy for an opportunity to talk about it. I don’t remember where I first heard of the idea, but I think it has its basis in one of St. Paul’s letters — let me look it up — it’s Colossians 1:24. I ...
Las Honduras

Las Honduras

10 month ago with 3 comments in Uncategorized
The Gospel reading today was the healing of the Gerasene demoniac. It’s an episode full of striking details, this one, for example: “Night and day…he was always crying out and bruising himself with stones.” When he cries out, is it the possessed person crying out in pain and horror, or is it the possessor[s] making themselves heard? Or is it some third option — ...

Serious Moonlight

11 month ago with 7 comments in Uncategorized
I woke up this morning to a palpable, startling sense of loss. I cried while walking the dog, and didn’t know why. It wasn’t till I got to work that I heard David Bowie was dead. The most likely explanation for my sourceless melancholy was my own weird neurochemistry, some stress over family trouble, some feelings of disorientation and overwhelmedness at my new job in a new city ...
Dark

Dark

1 year ago with 14 comments in Uncategorized
I have this idea that the world is an enormous dark whirlwind, a huge engine of death. It tears up and grinds everything in its path, trying to reduce everything to soot and dust and burnt gristle. And then the good we do is sparks of light, but those sparks get sucked right up into the arms of the whirlwind, and then they go deep down inside, and you don’t know what has happened to ...

Artifice

1 year ago with 7 comments in Uncategorized
The…paradox of building organic community is that ‘organic’ doesn’t happen spontaneously. Organic farming takes years of intentional soil preparation, careful observation of nutrient levels, and patiently disciplined nurture of each particular field. That’s from The Intentional Christian Community Handbook (which I am reading because of reasons), but it applies ...
The Business of Being Human (UD Talk, Part 3)

The Business of Being Human (UD Talk, Part 3)

1 year ago with 1 comment in Uncategorized
This is the third and final part of a talk given at the University of Dallas on October 19th, 2015. Photographs gratefully used with permission from Elizabeth Kerin. ★ I want to touch on one final thing, the thing I started with, and that’s my use of the word gay. I want to tell you that I’m not actually totally comfortable with this word, either. For a long time I resisted using ...