Happy Easter! One thing I like about Easter: everything. But besides that, there’s the fact that we get what amounts to a week full of Sundays. No good excuse not to rejoice.1
I’m just coming out of a three-week funk, and that’s an awfully long time for me. I tried all my best tricks, but still didn’t feel like it was ever going to stop. That it did stop — thanks, by the way, for all your prayers — had a lot to do with Easter and the Deep Magic from Before the Dawn of Time, and I’m sure I’ll have plenty to say about it one day; but for now it just needs to sit and marinate.2
Meanwhile, I have been reading some pretty good stuff. I made use of some of my store credit at a worthy institution and got a hold of Jacques Philippe’s Searching For and Maintaining Peace. It was just exactly what I needed. This is one of the passages that got underlined and double-starred.
We must put everything, without exception, into the hands of God, not seeking any longer to manage or ‘to save’ ourselves by our own means: not in the material domain, nor the emotional, nor the spiritual. We cannot divide human existence into various sectors: certain sectors where it would be legitimate to surrender ourselves to God with confidence and others where, on the contrary, we feel we must manage exclusively on our own.3
What was particularly helpful for me was the insistence that we need to put our emotional needs in God’s hands, too. I’ve always been pretty good about putting my material needs in his hands, but only because I’ve never been poor, and it’s easy to trust that you’ll keep having what you’ve always had.
What I find difficult is the idea that he’ll take care of me on the inside, too. This book is helping with that.
Okay, that’s all from Lake Wobegon. Keep soldiering on, keep praying, and remember that, thank God, it’s not all up to you. These days I’m wondering if any of it is.