Plug: Gay Subtlety

4 years ago with 5 comments in Uncategorized
Time for a plug! Check out gaysubtletly, a blog by two gay Christian men who are talking honestly (and with verve) about some of the really hard questions. Here are a few excerpts that particularly caught my eye. On prayer: I don’t often have moments where I feel as if the Holy Spirit is actively trying to tell me something. When people tell me to listen for God’s voice, I only end up hearing ...

Sanitarium

4 years ago with 7 comments in Uncategorized
I didn’t expect such a strong response to that celibacy post. I liked it because it reminded me of priests I know: men who became priests, not because they didn’t have it in them to be men or didn’t have it in them to be fathers, but because they did have those things in them. All the qualities that make a man a good father make a man a good priest. But I do understand why ...

Embracing Celibacy

4 years ago with 71 comments in Uncategorized
Hey, this is a neat post from the Marriage Matters blog: I don’t mean that [priests] simply acquiesce to celibacy, but they embrace it with their whole heart. I am not simply referring to men who think to themselves, “Golly, marriage would be good. Women are beautiful. Sex sounds nice. But, oh well.” I’m speaking of men who have stared into the eyes of a woman with the passionate desire to ...

Not a Punishment

4 years ago with 8 comments in Uncategorized
And I said “Help me, help me, help me, help me– Thank you! I’d no idea that you were there.”1 A few weeks ago, when things were worst, I was having one of those very anguished prayer times where you are yelling so loudly for help that it’s hard to notice when it comes. I finally asked: “Just tell me something, Lord; tell me something I need to hear, and ...

Here’s the Thing About That

4 years ago with 9 comments in Uncategorized
Well, this is an interesting time: it’s the first time that the majority of the people I see most days know that I deal with SSA. I told roommate #2 last night (roomate #1 has known for several weeks), when we were discussing the imminent move and he wondered out loud if there was some way they could get me to stay. “Well, here’s the thing about that,” I say to C., ...

Beginning To Pray

4 years ago with 6 comments in Uncategorized
I want to give you some words from the best spiritual book of any kind I have ever read. I keep trying to say something beforehand as an introduction, so you will know how good it is, but the best way is probably to just give you some passages. It is called Beginning to Pray, by Anthony Bloom. ★ As long as we ourselves are real, as long as we are truly ourselves, God can be present and ...

Moving Out, Pt. IV

4 years ago with 19 comments in Uncategorized
[ This story started here and continued here. ] IV: LEAVING VENUS I’m almost home from DC, and I stop to text Father T: Nearly there. Stopping by chapel for half hour. If all goes well in prayer, is it okay to tell them tonight? I hate having to ask about miniscule things like this, but by now I don’t trust myself to see straight. Father T. texts back: Yes. It’s tempting to ...

Moving Out, Pt. III

4 years ago with 8 comments in Uncategorized
[ This story started yesterday. It will conclude tomorrow. ] III: I KAN’T I’m at the wedding reception in DC, catching up with L. after, what, three years? She’s concerned because my back is acting up, and the painkillers aren’t helping. But I’m doing a good job keeping it together, even if I can’t dance and I’m not as voluble as I’d like. ...

Moving Out, Pts. I-II

4 years ago with 18 comments in Uncategorized
I: ENOUGH PEANUTS [Nota bene: This story is in four parts, and parts I-III are pretty grim, but there’s a happy ending. Also, there is a lot of smoking and no small amount of tears.] ★ I’m making Friday night plans with my brother Caleb. He’s saying we could stay in and watch a movie, or go out and get some drinks. “Or,” he says, “if you want to — and ...

Quick Update

4 years ago with 8 comments in Uncategorized
Boy, I have a lot of kind readers. There are tough times ahead, but The Situation is drawing to a conclusion. I’m writing the whole thing up, although I can’t promise it’ll be ready very soon. In the meantime, to everyone who offered me prayers and compassion, thank you so much and may your cups run over! And to everyone who offered me advice, I’ll try not to hold it ...