1: My boss is annoyed with me because I just put in a request to go part-time, so I can spend a full day every work week doing Gershom-type things. It’s okay that he’s annoyed: I know he’d rather I invested more and more of myself in helping him keep the place running smoothly. But I’m okay with not pleasing him. Writing is my first love and maybe my first duty besides, and coding is just how I pay the bills. I’m elated: writing makes me feel alive, when I can get around to it, and I’m looking forward to no longer having to squeeze it into the corners of my life.

2: Turns out you can just call up the doctor and ask him over the phone to up your dosage of antidepressants, and nobody bats an eye. Whee-oo! I loved the way fluoxetine made me feel when I first started taking it. The effects dried up after 6 months, but it was 6 months of feeling like a normal human being most of the time, relishing the blessed absence of that deep, pre-rational sadness. Maybe it’ll burn out again in another 6 months or maybe it will stick around, or maybe it won’t make any difference at all. But right now I feel fine, fine.

3: It’s still only 54 degrees out, but enough waiting already, I took my beloved Shadow out for its 2013 inaugural joyride. Oh sweet speed, to twist the throttle and feel how that engine craves more and more acceleration! I keep it in check, but I glory in the way it thrums, the exuberance of cornering on a twisty road. It’s like riding a dragon. Come on summer.

4: I just finished all seven Harry Potter books. I started them at age 15, got through the first three, then let a decade or so go by. Why did I wait so long? Dang, good stuff. Rowling is no great stylist, and her moral compass may not be perfectly calibrated, but she’s got ahold of something real: she knows about courage and she knows about true friendship, and those are things we need to hear. Plus she weaves a mean plot.

5: Speaking of good reads and waiting too long, I’m so glad I bought a Kindle. I got it as a sort of reward for having quit smoking, and in the hopes that it would get me to read a bit more. It’s a marvelous device. It’s a Paperwhite, so during the day it looks like paper and during the night it has a soft, adjustable glow. Somehow they made the screen gently textured, so when you swipe across it to turn the page, it even feels like paper. I love watching the letters dissolve and new ones form, I love how light it is and how many cheap C. S. Lewis books there are on Amazon. Yup, I guess I’m an Amazon fanboy now.

6: I just got back from a week spent in Florida with a couple of good friends. Tropical climes, quiet beaches, and sumptuous golf courses notwithstanding, my favorite part was the car ride there and back. My favorite thing after all is just conversation, even if that conversation mostly consists in singing along to Taylor Swift (complete with enthusiastic goat-screams) and making up new verses to “Pieces of You”, which Weird Al himself would find hard to make any more ridiculous than it already is.

7: I’m coming up on a year with my current therapist. That’s longer than I’ve lasted with anybody else. We agreed that we’ve made a sh★t-ton of progress, and all in all I’m so glad I no longer believe that therapy is only for the terminally screwed-up — either that, or everybody belongs to that category. We are, as Faulkner observed, a race of poor sons of bitches, so we might as well take help wherever we can get it.

12 thoughts on “Seven Quick Takes, Vol. 5: Elation Edition

  1. Jessica

    Medication combined with therapy have worked wonders for me, its been 8 months so far. Glad you are doing well!

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  2. Patrick

    Congrats on the bike ride and the part time! BTW, your feed is still showing only the first few lines of each post. :(

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  3. Carla

    You sound liberated, yay for you! I’m looking forward to more of your writing, I get so sad when I click on your site and there’s nothing new!

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  4. Daria Sockey

    Happy for you about all 7 items. My Kindle will be 2 years old on Mother’s Day, and I love it. But reading about your experience of the paperwhite almost makes me wish it would break so that I had an excuse to get a new one.

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  5. DaveMc

    So, happy for you Steve. Here in New England, the weather goes up and down at the bat of an eye; look for those warmer days, they’re coming!
    Oh, and thanks for making me smile…again!

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  6. Ethan

    Great post!
    Watch out with those dosage uppages. You don’t want to wake up a year or two from now and find yourself an anti-depressant addict.

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  7. Obapplepie

    Here is a fantastic article on Harry Potter by Fr Jim Costigan.

    http://instituteoftheholyspirit.com/Article-HARRY%20POTTER%20AND%20THE%20DEATH%20THAT%20FOLLOWS.pdf

    I know there is a lot of debate out there in the Christian/Catholic community about how guarded we should or shouldn’t be toward these stories. But we work with an exorcist priest who has expressed that many of the demonic oppression, obsession, and possession he has dealt with in the last several years has been Harry Potter related. While I do think it’s different to an extent for adults who see these books as simple fiction, for many young people it has been a gateway into the occult and satanism, and as converts from that life style my husband and I speak out against Harry Potter as well.

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