Las Honduras

Las Honduras

10 month ago with 3 comments in Uncategorized
The Gospel reading today was the healing of the Gerasene demoniac. It’s an episode full of striking details, this one, for example: “Night and day…he was always crying out and bruising himself with stones.” When he cries out, is it the possessed person crying out in pain and horror, or is it the possessor[s] making themselves heard? Or is it some third option — ...

Beyond the Misconceptions About Depression

2 years ago with 12 comments in Uncategorized
Reader E.V. sends along an interview with Dr. Aaron Kheriaty, author of The Catholic Guide to Depression. I haven’t read the book yet, but this is the second time it’s been recommended to me, and the interview is full of gems of good sense. On overspiritualizing the problem: I think most therapists have had the experience of Christian patients who prematurely ‘spiritualized’ what ...

The BFDZ

2 years ago with 11 comments in Uncategorized
So I went on a little depression-bender the other night. “Bender”, hah, it’s fun to call it that, like it’s something I did because I’m wild and unpredictable and because consequences shmonsequences! A bender is something that is, at least in theory, enjoyable in the moment, but you pay for it later. My depression-bender wasn’t like that. I did pay for it ...

Teacher

3 years ago with 7 comments in Uncategorized
Note: Occasionally, as below, I lift a post from an email to a reader. I never do this without the reader’s explicit permission. Thank you for writing, B., and for being willing to share this. ★ Dear B., I know what you mean about depression. I think we always expect suffering to be different from the way it actually is, whether that suffering is interior (like depression) or exterior ...

Stalactites

3 years ago with 11 comments in Uncategorized
Dear Readers, I’m just writing to say hi. I hope you’re well. Sorry it’s been a while. I don’t have any grand themes to expound upon, so maybe writing this post like a letter makes the most sense. I just got back from an extended weekend trip with my Kung Fu school, who I keep referring to as my “Kung Fu family”, because that is how I keep feeling about ...

Thanks

3 years ago with 23 comments in Uncategorized
I heard a nice idea from my sister: every time something happens that you’re really thankful for, you write it on a piece of paper and put it in a jar. Then, at the end of the year, you read the pieces of paper, to remember all the good things. I think I missed some big ones — I guess I forgot to keep putting stuff in the jar — and some of the things are on a whole nother ...

Seven Quick Takes, Vol. 6: Fill ‘Er Up

3 years ago with 7 comments in Uncategorized
1 – Long Dark Tea Time It’s been a long time since I was depressed, and that’s amazing. The odd thing is how not-sad is not exactly the same as happy. When I was habitually miserable, I always figured that being free from the constant oppressive darkness was all I could ever ask for. Turns out, nope, my appetite for bliss is infinite, just like CSL said (somewhere ...

7 Quick Takes: Esfuérzate y Sé Valiente

3 years ago with 17 comments in Uncategorized
1—It’s my writing day, and that’s a good day, but frankly, I’m in a lot of pain. These road bumps come and go, and I know better than to try reinterpreting my whole life in the light of how I happen to feel today, but today I happen to feel really awful. It’s like those days when you lie in bed shaking with the flu and you just think, “Gosh, I’d like ...

Maintenance

4 years ago with 17 comments in Uncategorized
On my 17th visit to my therapist, marking nearly a year with her, she asks me, What do you think has changed? I could truthfully answer: No longer frantic and empty Like a cat Tied to a stick That’s driven into Frozen winter sh★t1 But I don’t listen to Radiohead very often anymore, and that’s part of the point. The question doesn’t really have to do with the ways ...

Seen

4 years ago with 14 comments in Uncategorized
The other day, because I’m not used to dealing with life without tobacco (12 days so far, whee!) and because I ran out of my meds accidentally that morning (I’ve got some more now) and because sometimes things are just a lot to take, I found myself sitting in my cubicle and looking at my screen through a blur of tears. Sometimes an attack like that can be dodged by refocusing, but ...