Interpretive Overdrive: A Checklist For Neurotic Introverts

2 years ago with 20 comments in Uncategorized
Good working definition for a neurotic: someone whose Interpretive Faculty is perpetually on overdrive. Observe, gentle reader: Normal person in the car:Hey, I know this song. [enjoys, sings along badly] Neurotic in the car: Should I turn on my Aphex Twin CD? But I’ve been wondering lately whether I am losing sight of how to appreciate beauty, so maybe listening to Aphex right now will ...

Exodus Part 4: The Ordinary

3 years ago with 16 comments in Uncategorized
This is the final part of a four-part post. It began here. ★ There was a period in my life when orientation change was my first priority, and when I had the constant feeling that I wasn’t doing enough to achieve that end. If I missed an opportunity to play basketball, it meant I was cowardly; if I opted out of a social gathering, it meant I was lazy; if I left a party because I ...

Unwearied

4 years ago with 5 comments in Uncategorized
To my relief, I wake up too late for Mass this morning. More sleep means less surliness, and less effort spent ignoring my resentment at the priest who sings off-key and the parishioners who ad-lib the responses to make them just a little bit more feminist. I’m trailing a cloud of melancholy from bad dreams: something to do with wounds, accusations, betrayal of trust. I know from long ...

The Chalupa of Loneliness

5 years ago with 14 comments in Uncategorized
I spent a good chunk of the morning and afternoon soaked in brake fluid, gear oil, and sweat. I wanted to tell you about that mainly because it makes me sound awesome. I’m not especially mechanically inclined, but I am fairly cheap, and I won’t deny that working on my motorcycle1 makes me feel like a stud. No, actually it makes me feel like a petulant child about 80% of the time ...